I just arrived home. Actually I am still waiting in the airport because of the snow! Looking back on the past five months in Haiti, and seven total months spent there this year! I have mixed emotions.
It was so good in many ways and so hard in others. Part of me loves Haiti so intensely. The work, the people (especially all the new fluffy haired babies!), the mountains. When it came time to leave I didn’t want to think about it.
Another part finds relief in coming “home” to America, relief from the toll and stress that culture, relationships, and ministry take on a person. It’s not an easy place. Ministry is messy, working together with people of different ideas, backgrounds, and visions is hard. Being sick with strange viruses four times in one month is taxing.
I’ve had a few strange looks. I had to remember not to say “Mèsi” (thank you) when someone hands me something, or “Wi” (yes) when ordering food at Qdoba (oops!).
It’s a strange feeling navigating the transition between two homes and two families so vastly different from each other. Neither can understand the other, except perhaps in small ways, and I am in the middle. My heart is divided in two. I don’t fully belong anywhere. No matter where I am someone is always missing me and I am always missing someone.
I look on this season with my family expectantly. I know God’s calling for me doesn’t pause with change of location.
My prayer for this season
Lord, help me to use every opportunity given to serve others and press into Christ. May you daily strengthen and renew me to shine your light ever brighter, wherever I am. Help me to process my emotions in a healthy and helpful way. Give me grace in dealing with others who will not understand, realizing that they are not walking the same path as me. Help me to look only to you, for you are where my help comes from, the maker of heaven and earth and every tribe, tongue, and nation. Thank You for this journey. Thank You for Your presence. Thank You for the guidance of Godly people you have placed in my life. Thank You that You have walked before me and I am not left to navigate on my own.